It's Your Choice

A Short Story 

Think Before You Speak 

I really hate when people or one person tells you what to do or who to be, no one can tell who you are except you; so if I like something a lot and I want to show how much I like it does it mean that you can critics me if you don't like me the way I am just have nothing to say about it.

That's your choice you know so I won't be angry but I hate to see people hating on other people choices or their hobby like for example you love anime to the extent that you have maybe vampire knight wallpaper or you are dressing like them or try to speak Japanese that is your choice.

So there are things that I like but won't obsess about it cause I don't see the need to do that while others will go far and that's fine that's your choice you see everyone has a choice whether you want to fit in or stand out right yeah of course we do.

The moment that your parents say it's your choices it like another trick question most parents have their children future plan out before the moment they are born my mom is quite different she told me to do what I want to do.

Me I want to a lot of things when I was younger just because they seemed cool at the moment but as I got older thing seemed so boring you had to get a job that paid good money and you had to be under someone that makes me realise how naive and stupid I was,

Thinking back to that I realise that I slowly started to lose that childlike look at the world and started to become and an adult so I stop and I am trying to get back my way of the childlike self back and I have slowly gained a little bit.

That's why I started writing I enjoy being able to create someone something that didn't exist before out of my mind that slowly only saw that world as another day of school, follows the rules and you will fit into society like if.

As a person, you are supposed to be a certain way that isn't your personality that makes you able to deal with everything about you I really am starting to hate getting told what to do let me be my own person for once yeah I won't do anything too bad but stop telling me how to live.

That's my choice and that's what I want I look up at my mom and say "I am not a child anymore so stop telling me what to do I am so sick and tired of having to follow your rules and I will stop."

With that said I get a slap to face and I gasp in shocked but I knew that would come anytime I spoke up then again this is the first time she ever hit me but I did disrespect her time to take the door and I will make it on my own now.

Stuck

A Short Story

The Moment You Realise

That you don't what to do it's confusing and can send you into the mod that you are questioning your existence when there is no one that needs you and you are completely alone why I'm here again.

Why do some of us need to feel needed to be happy can't we just be happy when we are alone no it's too hard to alone sometimes you want to talk to someone be near someone no one in the world can say they never felt this at all cause at one point when you are alone you miss human contact.

If you don't stop lying to yourself that's what I repeat daily to myself being alone is hard being stuck not knowing you to answer this is hard when I think about being alone it sounds breathe taking but when I am alone I miss the noise I miss the company.

I have been trying to cut off my friends cause the last time I trusted them too much they crush me without a second thought should I still think of them as friends I don't know it's confusing but then again all relationships have some complications.

 Think back to that day I did something wrong I cried when I didn't need to well was because it hurt my pride or was because it hurt my feeling sometimes I don't understand the difference between the two of them sometimes.

But I did get my revenge though I took the guy that she really liked I know she secretly hates me for it what you don't do is, mess with me I can become heartless and look you in the eyes with happy and innocent eyes.

I guess I am a bad guy at times but that's when you push me too far I try to not think too much cause I can be malicious when push to the edge it kind of sad that I enjoy when I saw her face turn numb is she my friend after that.

I would hate me if I were her but I haven't deal with the other one yet why cause she is a little too easy to hurt and I don't enjoy hurting people who break easily but the strong ones who hide their feelings are much more interesting.

She still talks about him and I sometimes forgets that he's alive cause he's not important I just wanted them to know that I can be a hater too damn it thinking about that now I should really ask for forgiveness for being so heartless.

I guess I took things to far but when you do things and get hurt you do sometimes go overboard sorry my friend I didn't mean to go that far but you should have known not the play around and hurt my pride or my feelings whatever it was.

What I Want Is What I Want

What Do You Want?

I ask myself this question everyday and I have a different answer every time you see when you are growing up it hard to decide what you want to do even when you become an adult why cause what you want you can't get and because it doesn't make enough money.

Now money is very important in today's society I use everyday for snacks food bills and sometimes clothes why are things so expensive is the question that everyone asks but no one complains we just don't care as long as it doesn't involve us the individual.

If you can't afford it but I can so I don't care and that is the world we live in I love to point out what others should do but I don't think about myself from that view why it simple as a person I can only see other's fault before I see my own.

It's just that's how most people see it just how I can tell when someone likes someone but I can't tell when someone likes me confusing sometimes when you get a confession from a person that I never expected to get it from.

Then I question myself when the hell did this happen how didn't I see it coming I bet others go through this so what do I want, well for starts I want to learn a new language I want to sleep and not have to sleep for eight hours a day.

Confusing right then again I want to sing out loud even though I have an awful voice I want to stay up the whole night and watch anime or drama or movies then again that sounds boring I want to run around and not be looked at.

 

I want to do these things and not be look at or be called crazy but people can't help but drop their opinion for you to hear I want to be confident when I have to be I want to smile and not have to explain that I am happy.

I want to be the me that I am always hiding cause I am too childish I want to have a job that not about making money only I want to enjoy what I do not have to mature and work cause I need money but let me come back to reality what I want I can't have so I will just accept it as it is.

 

A Short Story:The Way We Used To Be Part Two

Lee stood in front the house that he has been to in years and it looks the same as when they were kids he rings the bell and then a familiar voice comes on "Is that you Ji Lee Kang?" he looks at the monitor and says "Yes Mrs.Young!" the echoes of footsteps running make it to his ear.
Lee doesn't panic only wait the gate opens and there stood Mrs. Young Jane's mother she pulls Lee into a hug which is kind of weird she was shorter than he remembers or is it because he got taller.

Mrs. Young was thrilled to see Lee it's been years since he stops coming over and when she asked Jane she would say "He's busy mom can't expect him to always be around!" Lee has always been like a son to Mrs. Young and his mother and she had planned to marry the two of them off when they got older.  But they stop talking and she had no say as well as Ai Lee her best friend but she knew that they would come back she had a gut feeling and it was always right most of the time.

Jane was up in her room when the house keeper came in and says "Ms. Young you have a guest the person is with your mother downstairs."  Jane was confused who was the guest that came to see her one thing Jane knew is that she doesn't have any friends so who could this person possibly be.
Jane got dress presentable and head downstairs to hear her mother's laughter and a man's voice when she enters the kitchen her heart almost stop there he stood next to her mother.

Lee her childhood friend 'why is he here?' she wonders Lee hears her grasp as she enters, of course, she is in shock he has talked to her for four years now and here he stood in her kitchen talking to her mother like old times.  Mrs. Young notice Jane as well when Lee turns to the kitchen door she says "Jane honey look who drop by Lee your best friend aren't you happy to see him!!"

Jane inhales and says "Yeah I am quite shocked mom Lee long time no see!"
Lee smiles and walks up to her then pulls her into him and hugs her tightly "yes Jane long time no see indeed" says to himself.

Mrs. Young seeks away leaving the two to themselves she quickly calls Ai Lee and says "Ai Lee I told you that they would come back on their own Lee Kang came over for himself and they are hugging it out let's start planning for the wedding that will happen when they finish college!"
Ai Lee says "Sophie that's great news lets meet for tea tomorrow and let's keep it a secret from the husbands you know how they will get when they hear this!"

A Short Story:The Way We Used To Be Part One

Well, when Jane was younger Lee was her best friend he would be there for her no matter what but that started changing when Lee started going up girl notice him now and they made Jane their target to make sure that she knew that Lee was theirs.

They show her every day that she should be around him at all little way they show her like taking her things and putting it in the trash or when it was P.E. taking her P.E. clothes and hiding it making her get in trouble with the teacher so detention became part of her life.

Jane was an A student or B student she was average did things to make sure no one noticed her had a friend look normal until he got older he got tall and girls notice him and wanted him not to have a best friend as a girl.

So they made it possible Jane made sure to stop speaking to Lee and they went onto high school as strangers but not all things like childhood friendship can end because others want to get in the way if someone is meant to be friends or more than friends the world will make sure it happens. 

Jane has changed over the years she has completely hidden away from the world Lee has changed as well over the years he can't talk to girls normally he sees most of them as of how you say it again bullies.

Lee doesn't and will not complete seeing girls or women as innocent he learned about a year ago how they bullied his little childhood friend and made her stay away from him and he is pretty pissed at himself for not noticing that was happening to her.

Now he has to make sure that he becomes friends with her again and no one is going to tear them again no one ever again.