Stuck

A Short Story

The Moment You Realise

That you don't what to do it's confusing and can send you into the mod that you are questioning your existence when there is no one that needs you and you are completely alone why I'm here again.

Why do some of us need to feel needed to be happy can't we just be happy when we are alone no it's too hard to alone sometimes you want to talk to someone be near someone no one in the world can say they never felt this at all cause at one point when you are alone you miss human contact.

If you don't stop lying to yourself that's what I repeat daily to myself being alone is hard being stuck not knowing you to answer this is hard when I think about being alone it sounds breathe taking but when I am alone I miss the noise I miss the company.

I have been trying to cut off my friends cause the last time I trusted them too much they crush me without a second thought should I still think of them as friends I don't know it's confusing but then again all relationships have some complications.

 Think back to that day I did something wrong I cried when I didn't need to well was because it hurt my pride or was because it hurt my feeling sometimes I don't understand the difference between the two of them sometimes.

But I did get my revenge though I took the guy that she really liked I know she secretly hates me for it what you don't do is, mess with me I can become heartless and look you in the eyes with happy and innocent eyes.

I guess I am a bad guy at times but that's when you push me too far I try to not think too much cause I can be malicious when push to the edge it kind of sad that I enjoy when I saw her face turn numb is she my friend after that.

I would hate me if I were her but I haven't deal with the other one yet why cause she is a little too easy to hurt and I don't enjoy hurting people who break easily but the strong ones who hide their feelings are much more interesting.

She still talks about him and I sometimes forgets that he's alive cause he's not important I just wanted them to know that I can be a hater too damn it thinking about that now I should really ask for forgiveness for being so heartless.

I guess I took things to far but when you do things and get hurt you do sometimes go overboard sorry my friend I didn't mean to go that far but you should have known not the play around and hurt my pride or my feelings whatever it was.